Monday, June 14, 2010

Two Big Steps

Today my friend Jennifer and I heading to San Fransisco to accomplish two big steps on my Road to Rome,  so I ask for your prayers.

1st we need to pick up my New Passport!  God has already been at work on this, seeing as I mailed it in last week asking them to have it finished by Tuesday because I needed to have it to go to the Italian Consulate to turn in with my Visa application.  However God knows best, and knew that the Consulate which I thought was open on Tuesday's and Thursdays is actually open on Monday's and Thursdays!  So somehow He and the fantastic folks at Travel Visa Pro got my Passport done in about 24 hours!!!

You have figured out by now that our second stop is going to be the Italian Consulate.  Pray that God will be at work here as well!  Visa Applications themselves look simple, but there is a lot of other paperwork and details that one must provide to prove they are worthy of living in Italy.  Pray that I have all that I need, if you know me you know details and paperwork are things I dread.  

Thanks for your prayers!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

The Great Commission

Sunday is my Commissioning Service, I can honestly say that though I did dream of being a missionary when I was a little girl I never dreamed of my Commissioning Day.  I guess I spent my little girl years dreaming of a wedding.  Now at 30 I can honestly say I have spent the last year dreaming of this day, and not a wedding. My how things have changed.  I feel like in a way this is a very similar experience.  It is a ceremony to celebrate a commitment and a future.  It is saying farewell to life as I have known it, and hello to a life that God has invited me into.

Perhaps this is why I am so excited to share this big day with so many loved ones, friends, and supporters.  The best weddings that I have attended are those where the Bride and Groom are obviously surrounded and supported by their families, their friends and their support network who also are vowing to help this couple make their marriage work, to stick with them through thick and thin.  To encourage and equip them as they endeavor to  move into this new phase of life.  This is exactly what I hope this Commissioning will hold for me, that I will be spending this weekend leading up to my commissioning with friends from all over from different parts and times of my life all coming together to help me move into this new phase of my life.

Also, like a wedding and like me there will be a new (though not pricey) dress and of course shoes! 

I am so thankful to all of you who have helped me reach this point in my life.  Thankful for the people that God has put along my path who have helped me to become the person God desired me to be.  I am  thankful to God for not giving up on me, for dreaming bigger dreams for me than I had for myself, and I am thankful that this day is one that I will get to share with so many loved ones.  

In case you did not get an invite, please know that you are welcome to join me on my special day this Sunday June 6th 9:30am, at Felton Bible Church.  With lunch following.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Thankfulness and a Broken Heart

It seems that so often these things go hand in hand.

My heart was broken when I went to Haiti, and yet I am so thankful that I went.
My heart breaks for my friends in Bangkok, yet I am thankful they are there and safe.
My heart breaks for my students struggling,yet I am thankful for the growth.
My heart breaks for friends who are mourning, yet I am thankful for your comfort.
My heart break each time I sin, and yet I am thankful for forgiveness.
My heart breaks for friends who have lost their job, and yet I am thankful that God has a plan, that they will have to depend on Him in new ways.
My heart breaks for Greece, yet I am thankful for the declining Euro.
My heart breaks at times in my singleness, yet I am thankful for God's overwhelming love.
My heart breaks for those who do not know that Love, yet I am thankful that I get to share it with them.
My heart breaks for my community, yet I am thankful for it in all of it's uniqueness.
My heart breaks for those who cannot move, and yet I am thankful that they are a living testimony of God's protection.
My heart breaks for the widows and widowers, yet I am thankful for their devotion.
My heart breaks for the homeless, yet I am thankful for their stories.
My heart breaks for so much, and yet I am thankful for all things for I know that God can and will use all things to bring Himself glory.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Big Day's Ahead Lets Pray

This Thursday I am going on a Road trip with one of my Supporters, Renee Shebanek to visit 8 churches and 2 businesses with the hope of gathering the remainder of my support!!! Oh you have no idea how excited we (her and I) are about the possibilities!  Please be praying with us this week and on Thursday that God will work through Renee and her fantastic connections to provide the rest of the support that I need.


Ways to Pray:

  • Pray that for safety as we travel to each location 
  • Pray for us as we plan what to say, what to leave at each stop and how to present our heart/God's heart for the Italian people
  • Pray that God will be preparing the hearts and minds of all those we share with.
  • PRAY THAT GOD PROVIDES THE REMAINING $1842 I need so that I can leave in June!!!
Also you are all invited to join us in prayer the following Thursday as well Thursday May 20th 7pm at Felton Bible Church.  Where we will be joining together in person to pray!  Hope you can make it and if you cannot be there, that you will join us in praying during that time.  

I am Excited to see how God is going to provide, I hope you are too!  Thanks for all your prayers!!!





Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Touchy Subject

Money, it's a touchy subject, no? I have come across very few people in my 29 years of life who enjoy the subject, especially when we are talking about their money, how they use it, how much they have, what they should or should not do with it. See, just typing this my tummy is tightening, I too hate the subject of money. However I have had to spend the last 15 months or so thinking a lot about money. Part of being a missionary (for most missionaries) is raising support. (knot in stomach) It is not a part that many I have met relish. But ReachGlobal does a really good job of educating us on support raising, not just how to do so, but also why we do so. We spend a few weeks studying scripture on missionary support and we attend a Support Raising Boot Camp. (sounds like fun, huh?)

For me, the Bible studies, and Boot Camp took place months ago and to be honest I thought that I would be finished raising support and living and serving in Rome by now. So now at month 15 I felt the need to revisit my lessons. And as I did I remembered that when I first read these verses and did these studies that I thought it would be great if churches and believers knew this stuff too. Somehow I wished they would know, and a few months back I even wrote a letter to the President of ReachGlobal suggesting that they offer a course online for church leaders and missionary committees. Hmmm... they said it was a good plan, but I am guessing like me it was not on the top of their priority list. Now at month 15 it is on the top of mine. And I have a blog. And a faithful, albeit not real vocal group of readers. Why not get a discussion started here? Maybe, I should disregard that knot in my gut, and my uncomfortableness discussing finances and just get the conversation going.

To be honest the question that got be back into the heart of why we raise support is one I have heard voiced again and again, and while I Knowwhy I have to raise so much money, I remembered that you may not. So lets chat. But here are some guidelines, so no one ends up hurt and offended. Please come at this with a desire to learn, please treat others comments as you would want yours treated, and above all when in doubt, ask. Ask others, ask God.

Okay so here we go...

Here are some scriptures and some questions I have already had the privilege of spending much time with, please read and think and respond...

1. Is it Biblical to be supported by others to do the work of God? Would it be better if missionaries were self-supporting?
      • Numbers 18:14, 21-24
      • Luke 8: 1-3
      • 1 Corinthians 9:1-18
      • Philippians 4:10-20
      • Acts 18:1-5
      • 1 Thessalonians 2:9
      • Acts 20: 33-35
      • 2 Thessalonians 3:6-12




2.     “I enjoy raising support for others but not for myself.”  Is it biblical for missionaries to make financial appeals for their own ministry? 
      • Romans 15:20-24
      • 2 Corinthians 1:16
      • 1 Corinthians 16:5-6
      • 1 Kings 17:1-6

3. "many missionaries and I would say churches have had a hard time getting support from younger generations" (thankfully not me!) How do we change this?

4.  Is it ok to make financial appeals to those who are not as well off as you? How about those who already give heavily?
      • 2 Corinthians 9:7
      • Philippians 4:17
      • Deuteronomy 16:17
      • 2 Corinthians 8:2-3
      • Luke 21:1-4 
These next two come up A LOT, not just in missions.  Believe it or not this is an issue in many churches in the USA as well.  Some people are bold enough to just come out and say that they think that missionaries and those who work in churches should be poor, others imply it.  So read on, and be honest.

5.   At what standard should missionaries/or those working in full time ministry set their lifestyles?
        • Matthew 11:18-19
        • Proverbs 30:8-9
        • 1 Corinthians 8:7-13
        • 1 Timothy 5:17-18
6.   If a missionary or pastor or youth pastor can get by in life and ministry at 80 percent of budget, should he/she be required to reach or be paid 100 percent?
        • Proverbs 6:6-11
        • Proverbs 13:22
        • Proverbs 21:20
        • Proverbs 30:24-25

And one answer I would like to give to a question that I keep on getting asked..."Why do you have to raise so much money?  You are going to get paid more than most people I know" 

Allow me to clarify...Yes I along with most other ReachGlobal Missionaries, especially those serving outside of a third world country do have to raise a hefty sum of money.  No, it is not just our salary.  For example, I am responsible to raise $6285 a month.  That money covers yes my salary, and my housing, but also my training, the ministry we run in Rome, office and technology.  Plus, if you have ever owned a business or  are self employed or have worked in HR you know that what you pay someone is not what it costs to hire that person.  There is heath-care, retirement, taxes and social security that all need to be raised.  Believe me when I say that ReachGlobal does their homework.  They know what it takes to keep a missionary on the field long term.  It is not cheep.  It is especially not cheep in Rome. However, I firmly believe that just because a city has money and a people group is living in a first world country and it will cost more to send missionaries there is not a valid list of reasons not to share the good news with those who need to hear it.

I really do hope that you will take some time to read some questions and scripture, and respond...I hope that you will take this discussion further and start looking at how and why your church "does missions" like they do. 

One of the biggest shockers for me in raising support is the lack of support churches give.  And while a few have been welcoming and generous, the majority of churches have not even returned phone calls or emails.  I cannot stress enough that it is clear from this end of things that The Church in America has lost sight of the Great Commission.  Even those who give financially to many missionaries are very rarely truly invested in the work of spreading the Gospel.  Raising support is just that, Support, not just money, not just for me, but for the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Play Time

Last night after reading the first half of Dangerous Wonder, by Michael Yaconelli I knew I was going to be scheduling a date with God.

When I got up this morning I hurried to get ready, bound and determined not to get sidetracked from my day with God. I made it out the door by 8:30 and headed down hwy 9 to Santa Cruz. As I drove I asked God where we should head, the only place coming to mind was The Abbey So that is where I ended up. I ordered my coffee and spent hours praying. It was good. I bumped into (never an accident on days like this)two friends, and got to talk with each of them about Rome and also about what God is doing in their lives. After I finished my second cup of coffee and the table next to me became distracting, I took off.

By that time it was past noon and I was feeling a bit hungry, so I headed to Pacific Garden Mall to have some lunch. My favorite lunch downtown is at Acapulco I ordered my favorite, Carnitas! Go try them, you won't regret it! (unless you are a vegetarian, then it might make you ill.) As I ate I finished the Dangerous Wonder a book all about recapturing a child like faith. A no holding back faith, a faith that allows for questions and for play. It is a great book and I finished it in less than a day. (that is something for me, not a fast reader)There are more posts to be written in regards to the book, but not today. Today I am going to tell you about my time with God at the beach.

I felt God inviting me to play, and since I love the beach and it is free, I decided that would be a good place. I got to 3rd Ave. Beach one of my favorites, parked the car and then stood up above the beach looking down enjoying the view. At the same time realizing that standing there was not really playful. So I removed the heels, the sweater, the scarf (not in that order) and made my way down to the beach. I loved the sand between my toes, the warmth of it on a cool day brought joy to my feet. I wandered till I found a piece of drift wood, and I safely plopped my self down on it and looked out at the crashing waves.
Beautiful, but not really playing. So I slid down into the sand resting my back against the log and let myself day dream, take in and just begin to relax. As I leaned back into the drift wood I began to think about that piece of wood. It occurred to me that in some ways the log and I are very much alike. It used to be somewhere else and at one point was planted, rooted to the only ground it had ever known. If it were to have human attributes it may have felt it knew its purpose in life, it may have been pretty satisfied with the status quo. But some how that tree became dislodged, and had been carried likely by a river into the massive ocean to one day be washed up along the shore. At first glance now you would call it drift wood. You may not even really give it a second thought, it just blends in there like it has always been a part of this land. That is how I long to be soon. Virtually blending in with my new surroundings in Rome. Carried by a force (God) so much bigger than I can wrap my mind around to a new place, but a place where I belong at this point in my journey. I could tell looking at the driftwood and using my imagination that it's journey had not been easy, and maybe it was not even over, but it was serving a great purpose where it was at the moment, as my backrest and more importantly as my doorway into a conversation with God.

Did I mention the sun began to shine just on me? I loved that little gift.

Then I felt God nudging me to to play in the sand. I said I did not feel much like playing in the sand, maybe I could just sit. I moved my feet around a bit to satisfy Him.
No, the invite came again, play. I looked around, there were others around, what would they think of a 29 year old playing in a pile of sand on a Monday afternoon, without any kids? Oh who cares I gave in I, I am moving soon anyway.

I dug into the sand getting to the cold wet sand moving it about. Not sure what to do with it. I felt a sand castle was asking a bit much given I had not brought along a bucket or shovel. So I just continued to push the sand. The thought came, to make a heart, but I resisted, feeling it too girlish and predictable. Then I began to shape Italy. I formed a boot clearing away the sand. I heard God whisper again about a heart, but I just focused on Italy, trying to recall which way the boot was supposed to face, then I remembered that it looks as though the toe will kick Sicily. So I adjusted accordingly. There I had lost myself in playing, and was pretty satisfied with the out come of my sand art. I snapped a picture on my phone so I could remember playing with God. Then I stood up ready to go. As I got up and moved out of the way I finally saw it. I saw that while I was forming Italy God had formed a heart.

God and I played in the sand today, and it was a day at the beach I will not quickly forget. It was such a great reminder that God not only cares about me, he cares about the things I care about, our hearts at this time very much inline with each other. God knows my heart, and created it for His purpose, and what fun to rediscover that today in the midst of play.

Go play with God! I dare you!!! I double dog dare you!!! Be a kid, let Him be your Dad and see what fun you will have as you just play together.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

The Time is Now

Faithful readers and supporters and new friends,

I am excited to tell you that I am now beginning the visa process!!! It is pretty vital that I get to Italy in June, because Brian and Sarah are going to be leaving in July for their son's wedding. Which gives me just a month to get settled and started with school and Bible Study. Otherwise I would likely need to wait until Sept, and that is just a long time to wait.

So please pray that the reminder of my monthly support will come in this month, today would be great, but this month would work. And that the visa goes through smoothly and quickly!

If you can start giving monthly please click here to sign up. If you decide to give please let me know via email, ASAP so that I can count it in my records, as it can take awhile to show up in my account depending on when you choose to give. So please prayerfully consider helping me get to Rome by June! Oh so close!